Originally posted on FB on Sunday, 6 May 2012
On this day in 1998; a boy I liked told me he liked me back and asked to hold my hand.
On this day in 1998; <my husband>, so young and cute, asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes and he became my 1st boyfriend and I became his last girlfriend.
On this day in 1998; I started a relationship with a man who made me happier than I ever imagined and we never looked back.
On this day in 1998; a whole new chapter of my life began.
On this day in 2011; life as I knew it came to a screeching halt. I laid down for a nap as <my husband's> happy wife and woke up his heart broken widow.
On this day in 2011; a door slamed shut on 13 years of my life.
On this day in 2011; I lost my bestfriend and my lover. My husband who year after year I choose and he choose me.
On this day in 2011; a whole new chapter of my life began.
On this day in 2012; I still miss <my husband> with an ache in my heart that is almost a physical pulling. My life as 'me then' and my life as 'me know' grow further and further apart. But when I am forced to stop and think about it, to see his face, hear his vioce, remember his love it still feels like yesterday.
On this day in 2012; I am, yet again, starting out on a journey in my life. Living on my own. Looking forward to the future. Finding love.
On this day in 2012; I am, through the ache and the tears, the reject and the lies, able to hold my head high and be amazingly grateful for the time that I had. For the true, ongoing, stronger than ever love I was amazingly blessed to have. I am able to know that I am going to be OK. That God's blessing in my life isn't done.
I miss you baby. More than I can express in words. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for choosing me.
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