Get your tissues </3

Originally posted ob FB on Thursday, 16 June 2011

The way my mind processes each day is like a roller coaster. Literally from one moment tto the next my feelings change. Sometimes I am able to be still and know in my heart I'll be Ok. Sometimes my mind is boggled at the very fact that <my husband> has died and is gone. Sometimes I feel so desperate to have our life back I can hardly stand it. Sometimes I can look at pictures and smile. Sometimes i can look at pictures and cry. Sometimes I can't bare to see him at all. 

But in every moment of everyday, good or bad, I miss him desperatly. 

A friend of mine, another widow I met in a group on FB posted this first song last night. I couldn't watch it until today (evenings are so so hard)  and the second one I just happened to find. They are my heart's words. 

I miss my friend more than I will ever be able to express and I will never stop hating this.

Forever - By Rascal Flatts > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SeTNKH7Vvrw&feature=related

Close- By Rascal Flatts > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vKHu1SowbwQ